It's reaching 2am and I'm still in school! FYP-ing..
Today's not been a really good day for me at the lab. Firstly, my lab buddy and mentor started work first because I arrived a little later. Not my fault since we were both 'activated' via sms (like the NSman advertisments) and I was furthur away :P Anyways, that's not the bad part.. Coming in halfway through, I wasn't able to grasp what was happening since the procedures were new. My mentor tried explaining to me twice in chinese but I couldn't fully understand it either. Guagh. Felt. So. Stupid. Because it's really very simple. Eventually he drew everything from step one on a piece of paper before I actually understood.
Many a times today he would try to explain the workings behind the procedures, sometimes I'll be able to comprehend, but more often than not I would miss something or misunderstand. A consolation is that my buddy is as lost as me sometimes, so we'll often rely on each other to decipher my mentor's instructions after he's gone lol...
People who know me well enough will also know that I'm a very hasty person, a person who overlooks nearly every detail. I'll probably manage to miss a $1000 bill on the road unless someone picks it up and waves it ard first. Just today I managed to add the wrong amount/type of solution to a mixture.. TWICE. Sigh. Thankfully both could be solved relatively easily. Should really learn to read the instructions VERY carefully before moving on.
So I was pretty demoralised for the day but my mentor was still pretty patient. I'm quite thankful for him, really... Even though he pushes us really hard. Wonder what he thinks of me as a student :/
So came 11pm plus and he returned home. I thought I could redeem myself by running things smoothly without supervision. All went well, and I was pretty happy. Then came the final blow, just 10 minutes ago. Apparantly I mistook an enzyme we were supposed to use and used another one instead (still not confirmed). I sent him an sms for confirmation but recieved no reply. Since we thought he was asleep, we decided to continue. Then he replied AFTER we added the stuff. And instructed us to stop everything immediately till tomorrow as he thinks we used the wrong one.
Sigh. I'm tired and very demoralised.
Feel like just dropping everything, but I know I won't. And can't anyways.
Will be working over the weekends too. I really hope things can go well.
FYP is eating into much of my plans, and it'll be pretty sad if I go through it like some idiot.
Please pray for me if you're reading this. I don't think a careless and bumbling christian who can't seem to adhere to instructions makes for a very good testimony.
Well, if I don't edit the blog later you'll know I used the wrong one for the last mistake.. And that makes 3 major mistakes in one day on top of many little ones.
*Edit: The enzymes used were right, just that we were not sure if half of them used were diluted. Not a big problem in the end but should learn to be more alert nonetheless.*